Things That make you go Hmmm…

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I’ve never considered myself to be a Type A personality. I never thought I was organized enough to be a type A. My heart is always in the right place but things never happen the way I imagined it would. This was until I realized I have spent the last two days planning out my summer with the kids (if I don’t work this summer). I know exactly what movies we are going to, on what days as well as every single pool day we will have and I’ve added up what it will cost. I planned out a summer like this two years ago and it was the best summer because I knew exactly what we were doing on what day.  Last summer I was working and didn’t plan ahead at all and it was a total bust. I missed out on a lot of time with my kids and just felt like I failed them because I didn’t plan ahead.

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So Here I am making their summer binders with schedules of what we are doing…..and it’s November.

So I decided to look up the definition of a Type A Personality. Here is what I found:

“The theory describes a Type A individual as ambitious, rigidly organized, can be sensitive, truthful, impatient, always try to help others, take on more than they can handle, want other people to get to the point, proactive, and obsessed with time management. People with Type A personalities are often high-achieving “workaholics” who multi-task, push themselves with deadlines, and hate both delays and ambivalence.”

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So there you have it. I encompass many of those traits. It makes me want a glass of wine just thinking about it. Although I don’t think it is a bad thing I do bite off more than I can chew – a lot. I make all these plans, sign the kids up for multiple sports camps, art camps, swimming lessons, etc. I do not give a second thought to me or my needs I just do it. I go and go and go and go until I crack. This is what happens last month. After having more than a few anxiety attacks at work one day I began crying and couldn’t stop. Taking the time off has helped but now I’m scared to go back. My biggest pet peeve is saying no to people or God forbid admitting I can’t do everything.

I’m trying to remember if there is anything in the Bible about being an overactive mom but really the only thing that is coming to mind is the story of Mary and Martha. One of my favorite books is, “Having a Mary Heart in a Martha World.” This book spoke to me on so many different levels and I highly recommend it.

Anyway, there is a chapter in the book about finding balance in your life. Obviously i struggle with this. I still don’t know what the answer is and I’d like to think I will have balance in my life again one day. Right now I feel like an unstable hot mess. My poor dear husband has so much patience for me.

In the mean time I will keep on keeping on.

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Tonight’s Dinner: Crockpot Lasagna

This recipe is from, http://www.howipinchapenny.com/2013/02/crockpot-lasagna/

But I added cream cheese.

Ingredients: 

  • 2 lbs ground beef, browned (or 1 lb. beef and 1 lb bulk sausage)
  • 1 box lasagna noodles (boiled for 4 minutes…not 8-9 as stated on the box)
  • 3 jars of your favorite sauce
  • 6 cups of shredded mozzarella cheese
  • 1-2 cups grated parmesan cheese (the stuff in the green jar is good for this recipe)
  • 2 packages of fat free cream cheese melted

 

Procedure:

  • Combine the 3 jars of sauce with the browned off meat.  Fill each jar 1/4 of the way full with water and swish to get out every last bit of sauce and dump into the sauce/meat mixture.  Wast not, want not! Plus the extra water will be absorbed into the par cooked noodles. Warm the mixture on the stove to heat through.
  • Ladle a thin layer of sauce/meat mixture on the bottom of the crockpot.  This will help prevent the bottom layer of noodles from burning.

 

  • Layer par-cooked noodles to cover the bottom of the crockpot. Over lapping each noodle by about 1/4 of the width of the noodle underneath.
  • spread cream cheese over the noodles evenly over the noodles.
  • Top with enough sauce and meat to cover the cream cheese.

 

  • Cover the sauce with a generous portion of mozzarella and grated parmesan cheeses.

 

 

  • Continue the process until you have run out of noodles, sauce and cheese. Be sure to end with cheese so you have melted, gooey cheese on top.
  • Turn the crockpot on low for 2-3 hours if you have warmed your sauce or 3-4 if everything went into the pot cold.  I would not recomend using the high setting as feel it dries out the noodles on the edges.

What is your ‘go-to’ meal in the crockpot? Have you ever made a lasagna in one?

We are under contract!

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We found a beautiful home and the seller has accepted our offer. We are under contract and close a month from now.  I’m so happy and excited and scared to death at the same time. This is going to be a heck of a ride. Between now and January 1st we have to get through three birthday parties, Thanksgiving and Christmas, an anniversary party and moving. Oh, and the kids will be out of school almost four of those weeks due to Thanksgiving and winter breaks and I have to go back to work full time on December 3rd. I kind of want to close my eyes and not open them until it’s all over. I’m not cut out for this. Or that’s how I feel at least. I use to feel as though I could take on anything without fear and somehow within the last few years my heart has been filled with worry and insecurities.

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I’m dreading going back to work full time. I just feel like I’m tapped out and can’t go on like I was and now I’m jumping right back into it. I don’t want to let anyone down especially my family. ESPECIALLY my husband. Working full time and balancing my schedule with the kids and trying to keep the house up…it was just too much. All the kids are really active and all three of them have different schedules. I have to be off work in time to get them from school. I have to pay for before school care. I didn’t clean as much or cook as much. I just feel like I fail if I do and I fail if I don’t. I have a huge lump in my throat just thinking about it. I don’t know how other women do it and if they have the same struggles as I do.

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I just need to sack up, buckle down and get-er-done because being afraid is only going to make things worse. I’ll get through this and if I don’t at least I’ll have interesting blog about how I had a nervous breakdown. Speaking of buckling down on things. The hubs and I had a talk about how we are going to cinch up our belts when we move. With that comes a serious budgeting overhaul. We are going to spend all of our saving on this house which leaves us with no safety net for emergencies. Our goal is to build our savings back up asap. I found a lot of great stuff on youtube about budgeting and what’s called the “zero balance budgeting system.”  I believe this system is what Dave Ramsey teaches. Since Paul’s paychecks are always different it will be key to write out a budget every pay period. I’m actually excited to start doing this so I can feel like I have control over something when right now it seems I have no control over anything.

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 Here is a link to a youtube video I found helpful.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PWF-zpgS5YA

As long as we can do this budget together and always try to be on the same page and work as a team. I think sometimes people think when their spouse wants to do a budget they feel deprived or restricted. When I presented this plan to my husband he was very receptive. A huge pet peeve of mine is when I hear the comment, “yeah I can’t buy that soda because it’s not in my old lady’s budget,” or “I can’t get my hair done because my husband says it’s not in our budget.”   First of all you should know the budget as well as your spouse. No one should be telling you what you can or can’t spend because you should know the numbers yourself and make the decision for yourself. Snarky comments about spending money will only cause resentment. Plus if you are doing your budget correctly you should have the money for little extras. Maybe not every week but in moderation. 90% of all martial arguments can be traced back to the issue of money. I do not want to be that statistic. Although I make pennies compared to what my husband makes I can still contribute to our marriage by being wise, thrifty, being a diligent manager over my part of our house hold budget and hole heartily supporting the hubs has he puts forth the effort – time -miles to provide for our family.

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Butterflies

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I think the best part of my husband being a semi-driver is that we have the initial, euphoric, feelings of new love more than those who see their significant other on a daily basis. I still have butterflies when he walks through the door for the first time in a week. There isn’t the chance to get overly used to one another. The days without him can be long and lonely but it makes it that much sweeter when he comes home. He’s my best friend until the end. I can’t wait to see him again. Missing my trucker today!

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A prayer for my Trucker

I have not been feeling well this week. I think it’s because of the medication. I see the Doctor on Thursday and in the mean time he has backed me off the dosage. I’ve been increasingly anxious and worried. I wish things would just get better in my head. I worry about things I can not control, my emotions being one of them.

My husband has been gone the past two nights. I saw a prayer I really liked for my trucker.

“Lord, help him to be safe as he travels each mile.

Let your presence guide him and bring him a smile.

Take care of us while he is away. Let him know I miss him each and everyday. 

Steer him clear of all the dangers he may cross. I put our hands in yours Lord.

Keep him safe and get him home.”

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Yesterday’s Menu

This recipe is something I have not made for a long time but was a big hit with the family.

It was adopted from http://www.saving-makes-cents.com/2012/07/what-is-for-dinner/

But these are my own pictures and I put in my own little spin on it.

Ingredients:

  • 4-6 raw chicken breasts,
  • Red potatoes,
  • Green beans (fresh or canned-really any green veggie would work. Broccoli is good, too).
  • Onions (optional)
  • Butter (optional)
  • Salt
  • Pepper
  • Garlic or garlic salt
  • Parsley

My husband and I love onions so I line the dish with onions before putting the rest of the ingredients on top.  Arrange chicken, green beans and potatoes in a 9×13 dish. Sprinkle seasonings as you go with a melted stick of butter (optional). Cover with foil and bake at 350 degrees for 1 hour. 

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I always have chicken and potatoes left over so I cook them up and put them in containers so my husband can take them for lunch.

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Enjoy!